I'm In A Shitty Mood

Song of the Day: Von - I'm In A Shitty Mood (self-composed)

I'm in a truly bizarre mood. I just ranted about my fed up-ness with life in general and now I'm in the mood to tell you about new songs that you just had to have in your Ipod.

All this while I'm still having a massive headache and was contemplating on calling an early night. Also, I'm supposed to be doing my assignment. HELP!

[shakes head]

Anyway here goes,

1. Estelle ft Kanye West - American Boy
2. Duffy - Mercy
3. Gabriella Cilmi - Sweet About Me
4. Leona Lewis - Better In Time
5. Mika - Big Girl (You Are Beautiful)

That's all. I'm gonna soak and wallow my misery in Suzanne Brockmann now. A good romance novel is my answer to theraphy.

I Got Rhythm

Song Of The Day: Ella Fitzgerald - I Got Rhythm

My song of the day is SO a farce. I have absolutely no rhythm much less music at all.

I'm so fed up. With everything! Nothing's been going according to my best-laid plans and I'm absolutely FED UP. What the hell do I have to do to find a god-damn job nowadays??!! I'm on the Dean's List, I'm (was, technically) active in clubs and societies and I speak 3 languages! Jeez, I seriously don't understand why those ass-hole recruiters can't comprehend what I have to offer them!

I'm sorry for lashing out like this but I am so seriously fed up with this whole getting-a-job process. I even have one company not bothering to give me the courtesy call-back to tell me that I was unsuccessful after a phone interview. After 1 month of waiting, I have given up.

Now, I know what it feels like to be a struggling actor in Hollywood.

On a brighter note,

1. Jack won So You Think You Can Dance
2. Jason Castro is still in American Idol
3. Manchester United is in the UEFA Champions League Final

God. My happiness factor lies in reality TV.

I am such a LOSER.

Picture Of You

Song of the Day: Boyzone - Picture of You

On a sidenote, this song was (and still is!) one of my favourite songs from those high school days. Ah... boybands. They are an endangered species now (and will remain so for the near future) but I can't help but relive those teeny-booper days I once had now and then. BSB, NSYNC, 98 Degrees, Westlife... Did I miss any out?

I just spent the last hour watching "So You Think You Can Dance" Australian edition and now it's down to the Top 4. Next week is gonna be the finale and I'm gonna spend all my phone credit voting for my absolute favourite dancer of all, Brisbane-r Jack Chambers.

I just found out he's bloody 19 years old. Dammit.

To vote: SMS JACK to 19 10 10

He just have to be Australia's favourite dancer or else I will.... [use your imagination]

Alone

Song of the Day: Heart - Alone

"There was never yet an uninteresting life. Such a thing is an impossibility. Inside of the dullest exterior there is a drama, a comedy, and a tragedy"

Mark Twain

You've obviously never met me, Mr. Twain.

Reflections and philosophy aside, let me just breathe a heavy sigh of relief. SIGH. Thank God it's over. 2 exams back-to-back really can take the toll outta you and yours truly have suffered headache, stress, trauma (Yes!) and bitchiness in the process of these past 2 days. But all is not well just yet. Next week? Another exam and the week after next? Assignments.

Gosh. Why did I ever say I love being a student?!?!

The best part of this week was the fact that Jason Castro is still in American Idol. Phew. In a theme week of Mariah Carey, one would expect him to crash-and-burn but he came out blazing (though not entirely hot) with his usual guitar and laidback style. Next week would be Andrew Lloyd Webber theme and here's to hoping he would sing "Any Dream Will Do" and nailing it to perfection!

Another good part of the week happened just today. So, ladies and gentleman, mark your calendar: 19th July 2008. That is the day that I'll be flying back to my dearest homeland. Wahaha. After months of deliberation, I finally decided to purchase a return ticket come-what-may. Not that I'm placing too much hope of getting a job here in Oz anyway. This is such a bad time to be graduating overall (Read: recession). All the best to everyone finding a job out there.

I was thinking of the very 1st meal that I will have as soon as I land in KL and you know what came to my mind? Hokkien Mi. Yup. That noodle with starchy, black sauce. Yummy. I miss it soooo muuucchhhh. Dessert? Tau Foo Fa. As you can see, I've been planning my homecoming for some time now =)

I'm too lazy to do anything right now. Just finished the exam a few hours ago and then had pizza in the uni (pleasant meal accompanied by jazz music from a piano) and then watched a slightly disappointing movie (Killing Me Softly) and then, here I am.

I should read for my next exam on Thurs. But I can't seem to stare at the book long enough for me to even get an ounce of knowledge into my fogged brain. For the moment, I'm giving up. I shall read my novel and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

4 minutes

Song of the Day: Madonna ft Justin Timberlake - 4 minutes

I shall try my damndest to finish this blog in 4 minutes!

So, I broke the resolution (of blogging everyday). Big deal. They are meant to be broken anyway.

Argh! I have 2 mid sems coming up this week and I can barely concentrate on studying. There are a couple of unwanted thoughts in my mind lately which kept wandering far and beyond while I'm supposed to be studying diligently. Sigh. Let's not go there. I'm stressed out as it is.

Joy, joy! Manchester United beat Arsenal on Sun night which I was fortunate enough to watch live on my very own Dell. Wahaha. Thanks to Sopcast and the wonders of P2P. Internet, I owe my life (and my sanity) to you. Coupled with Chelsea drawing with Wigan on Mon, I would arrogantly say that the title is heading back to MU. But you know what would be better? Being the Champions of Europe. Now, that would be the icing on the cake.

Speaking of cake, we had a pretty wild and rambunctious steamboat (cum birthday party) last Sat nite. Things got a little out of hand (no, I don't mean chairs being throw around) in the sense that people were to eager to play the role of matchmaker. Anyway, I now learned my lesson. Stay away from other people's business.

Ok. My 4 minutes is up. But damn, I still haven't mentioned about my brother's wedding and me having to buy 2 dresses for the occasion (OMG! This is such a catastrophe!). I hope the note of sarcasm was obvious enough.

But there's always later.

Where The Boys Are

Song of the Day: Connie Francis - Where the Boys Are

I decided to go way back in time and select this old crooning song. Not to mention, the title has constantly been pondering in my mind (much to my annoyance!) in my endless search for romance. Is it too much to ask for a fairytale romance where boy meets girl, falls head-over-heels in love and lives happily ever after? I guess it is. Before you go and get any ideas about the song title, I'm not a boy-crazy and SAD (Single And Desperate) individual. I just like to keep my options open (Hey, it is a big big ocean full of exotic fishes after all).

Since it is the weekend, I don't think I wanna waste precious moments contemplating on the "Why?" or "When?" or "What if?" of my romance status (or lack thereof). In fact, it is a subject I wanna stay far, far away from (today, at least).

My apartment will be hosting a steambot tonight. What turned out to be a simple birthday party plan escalated into a full blown come-one-come-all potluck event featuring all our friends. But I'm not too excited about it. In fact, nothing much gets me excited (in every sense of the word) anymore these days. Am I losing my touch? Maybe it's just because I miss the sense of belonging within a gang of friends comfortable in each other's skins. Needless to say, I don't feel BELONGED here.

I slept the night before with a nagging worry in my mind: MY FUTURE. Or lack of it at the moment. I woke up in the morning with the same thought and it doesn't soothe my sour mood. I am done ruing (Err.. from the word rue?) about what could have been or what would happen. I have to make things happen myself! My future lies in my own hands!So, in other to appease my troubled mind, I devised a backup plan just in case I could not secure a job right after graduation. No, it does not involve me getting attached to an angmo (and gain PR status by de facto) or marry a rich old heir either. Sorry to dissapoint but I just can't imagine marrying a guy for his money (even if he is tall, dark and handsome). I want to spend $$ which I make with my own hard work. That's how I define success.

So, what if along my career progression, I neglected a few of my social needs (Read: relationships). That's the price I am willing to pay because at the end of the day, you're the only person you can depend on. Anyway come what may, I hope that in time, I can honestly say that I am HAPPY with who I am and what I've become.

I might have been lying when I said I'm willing to ignore my ticking biological clock and forego having a family. Cause truth is, I really, really do want to have a child. More than I desire to have a man for the rest of my life. If none the takers, I will just adopt. Hah!

Is this normal? Haha. In this age and generation, nothing can be considered unconventional anymore.

Oops I Did It Again

Song of the Day: Britney Spears - Oops I Did It Again




It's not that I have suddenly developed an affinity for the Teen-Princess-Gone-Haywire-Now-Trying-Acting Miss Spears. But I found it apt to name my post today just that since, after all, Oops, I REALLY did it again!


What did I do, you may ask? What else but the bane of woman's existence (and most notably our bank accounts!), SHOPPING!!!


I may argue that it's retail therapy since I have been feeling a little down lately and nothing much is happening (on the career front) but let's face it. Come rain or shine, women can't be drawn (or dragged!) away from shopping, be it for clothes, accessories or even (gasp!) household products. Believe me, I know girlfriends who find pleasure in shopping around for pots and pans.


The best (smartest?) kind of shopping expedition (I came, I saw and I conquered!) would be to have a list of your shopping needs. I have always been a victim of random shopping, often buying stuffs that I thought I needed at the moment but turned out to be worthless in the end. So on the agenda today was 1. scarf and 2. tights. I even budgeted $20 for it.


The city is often my "sanctuary" for my shopping expeditions as there are many bargain shops around like Valley Girl (my fav!), Supre, Temt and Cotton On. Anyway, to cut the long story short, here's what I bought today:

The material is soooo soft and the colour so eye-soothing... Pink isn't usually my fav colour but what the heck? I can be girly when I want to. Especially now that it's winter =)

Due to unforeseen circumstances (like the slow-as-snail internet connection right now), I won't be able to showcase the tights that I bought today. Stupid. Just uploading that one picture above took me 5mins. And I'm not a patient person when it comes to technology. Tights have been making a steady comeback in the fashion world today. My mum would be happy that she gets to wear her purple leggings bought in the 80's again very soon.=P

So... OOPS I DID IT AGAIN... I promised myself no more shopping after CNY but being me, I obviously can't help it (again!).

Now, do you understand why I need to earn lots of $$$?

JP Morgan, Lehman Brothers, CALL ME!

Blackbird

Song of the Day: Beatles - Blackbird

This is going to be my new April Fool resolution: Blog everyday.

You would think the hardest part would be to think of something to crap about but I disagree. Instead, I think the hardest part would be thinking of the Song of the Day. What? With my ultra large music collection, I would think this would be an easy feat. Yeah, right.

My day started off on a wrong foot as I woke up earlier than I intended too. With eyes blazing and head spinning, the first thing I did when I woke up was .... Nope, not too brush teeth or tidy the bed but ... check the results from yesterday's MU match against Roma. Seeing that MU made it safely into the semi finals put me in a jovial mood and I strut towards the bathroom for my morning routine. Then, I made myself a hot cup of cocoa and enjoyed it while browsing the net. Recently, I have become a trader. Yeap, that's right. A trader who trades in the sharemarket. Haha. I joined this JP Morgan (potential employer?) competition where all contestants are given $$ to trade shares. At the end of the month, the person whose portfolio is most superior wins $$. So I figured, Why Not? though I wasn't much of a trader. That explains why my portfolio is registering a negative amount at the moment. So much for getting my hands on that $$.

Brisbane has been chilly lately (which I like!) and it took me a while to decide what to wear. Honestly, I have become so fickle-minded these days. Signs of old age. I almost forgot that I had an exam today during 1st period. Honest to God, it slipped my mind while I was praying the night before. Anyhow, it turned out to be a piece of cake. I shouldn't have spent so much time studying it. Ish. Then, I had 2 hours to kill which I spent it luxuriating (Is that even a word?) on the green, green grass of UQ. Ah... this is what uni is all about. I'm so gonna miss UQ come July.

I could go on recapping my day but let's face it... it's boring stuff. Even I nearly fell asleep writing it. So, where do we go from here?

MU vs Barcelona in the semi's. Hmm... Would this be Milan all over again? I had such high hopes last season but it all came crashing down on the 2nd leg. Needless to say, my heart was broken. Argh! But Barcelona hasn't been at their top gear lately and in contrast MU has been in spectacular form ('cept for the hiccup on Sun against Middleborough). Anyway, I do fancy MU's chances to get to the final and face up against either Liv or Chelsea. Maybe (Do I dare to hope?) this would be MU's year again! Bring on '99!

I had an random thought while I was watching Getaway on TV earlier. Where would I wanna spend my honeymoon? The practical side of me (save $$) would say, "Aiya, just go Bali niya" but the romantic side was saying, "Italy? Spain? France?" I was also thinking of how exotic it would be to honeymoon in Egypt. But in the end, I would want a European experience. Spain, especially. With the historical buildings, the pretty sidewalks, the Old World aura, the wonderfull aroma of food and the man you love walking beside you, isn't it romantic??

Not bad a blogpost considering I have nary an interesting thing to say today. I better stop while I'm ahead =)

Bleeding Love

Song of the Day: Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

I know, I know... WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?

My sincerest apologies to you, my dear blog. I have no excuses except that I've been really, really, REALLY not in the mood to blog. Ergo, nothing to write about.

It's already April. Fast forward another 3 months and I would have been a GRADUATE. Gosh! After nearly 20 years of student life, I can't comprehend the fact of me being a working adult. On that front, NO, I still haven't gotten a job offer (though I'm trying my damnedest to secure one). Damn, what the hell are those companies looking for? SUPERWOMAN? My resume is impeccable (if I must say so myself). Anyway, enough of the saddest story of my life.

Oh wait, is there even a good story in my life right now? I'm neck deep in midterm tests, 2 assignments and countless (hopefully) interviews to prepare for. April is turning into a MONTH OF MADNESS. But here I am still blogging away. I figured I owe it to you after all the neglect to at least pen down some of my pent-up emotions due to "stress" from uni.

C'mon. Me? Stressed? Yeah right.That word does not exist in my dictionary. I am as HAPPY-GO-LUCKY as a hippie can be. Speaking of hippie, the love-of-my-life idol, Jason Castro scored again on the homefront. And he did it on the most bizarre (and unexpected) song choice, Somewhere Over The Rainbow. I was expecting the Judy Garland version to come out from him but I was mildly surprised to hear a ukelele version of it. Truth be told, I can't understand why everyone is singing his praises over that song (Sure, it's good but was it THAT good?). But, being a lifetime fan, I shall not complain on Simon's "Fantastic!" remark. Speaking of Idol, I so wanna watch IDOL GIVES BACK! Why can't I be studying in America?

Actually, I have an exam tomorrow. Talk about my bad timing. But I have this pre-exam syndrome which has been a pain in the ass for recent years. 1 day before the test, I lost all interest in studying, even to the point of watching movies or reading novels to pass the time. I can't help it! Is this complacency? I listed that as one of my weaknesses during my interview preparation. The other one is, (drum roll) PROCRASTINATION, which I'm willing to bet almost every person my age is guilty of. My other weakness, laziness. Haha. But I doubt prospective employers would wanna hear that.

I guess it's time to revert back to my books. I need to keep up appearances after all =)

Blue Bayou

Song of the Day: Linda Ronstadt - Blue Bayou

"Saving nickels, saving dimes

Working till the sun don't shine

Looking forward to happier times

On the Blue Bayou"

If only all of us have our own Blue Bayou where happiness lies. I wish I know where is mine =)

As you've probably already figured out by now, my blogging rate is seriously deteriorating of late. I just lack the inspiration and the desire to blog anything, even if something interesting is happening in my life. Not that I'm suggesting it is, cause it ain't.

For the 1st time in my entire life, I was interested in the outcome of the general election just held yesterday in Malaysia. I never knew politics could be so exciting but this year, with the racial tensions hoopla and practically all my peers having a say at it, I decided to jump on the bandwagon. I came back home at 12am yesterday after a dismal showing of 10,000 BC and I found myself hooked in front of the laptop, searching for latest news of the results. I couldn't stay away for 2 hours and everytime I decided to lay my head to rest, some exciting results were announced. It turned out I wasn't the only one among my friends who were diligently following the election process. My MSN chatroom had turned into some political forum for a while. Haha. I guess this is an indication of us becoming ADULTS. 5 years ago, I couldn't care less about politics at all.

Speaking of politics, I guess I should shut up now or else risk being shut down by the gov. But I think at this time, they have more important things to worry about (like the fact they lost 5 states to the opposition). Anyway, yesterday was a day of surprises alright. Both MU and Chelsea lost respectively in their FA Cup ties. The saving grace for MU was that Chelsea's lost was significantly more humiliating as they lost to some unknown 2nd tier team. Haha. Thanks Chelsea! If we can't have it, you can't either =)

So, it's going to be Week 3 soon. Time is really running by swiftly. I remembered a time before I left Malaysia, blogging about the same thing. But that time, I was dreading the time to leave Msia. Now, I'm dreading the time to leave Oz. Such a turnaround, I'll say.

The truth is, I'm ambivalent about staying in Oz. On one hand, I like the simplistic and laid-back lifestyle of the Aussies. On the other, I want to be close to my family and friends. Then, there's my career to think about. Needless to say, Australia ain't exactly the financial capital of the world so opportunities are rare. The point is moot anyhow. In order to stay and work in Oz, I need a PR and we all know that isn't a possibility. If somehow I can charm an angmo dude to fall in love with me within the next 3 months and grant me de facto PR, then it might become a reality. But we all know, my romantic prowesses ain't exactly my strongest "quality".

Anyway, my future career is all I can think about these days. I really, really want to secure a job before I graduate or else I would deem myself "incompetent". Such high standards I know. Some might say it's still a bit early to look for a job but the best jobs (investment banking) are as competitive as it gets and you really have to step up a notch to get that "dream" job. I want to be earning $7k a month!! I want to be a part of Morgan Stanley, Merrill Lynch, Credit Suisse, or even Macquarie and be the envy of all my peers!

Sigh, sometimes I think my ego is my biggest enemy. Actually, most of the time it has proven to be my downfall. So,

Screw you, EGO!